Poem#4
You know that everything was through between the two of you. You are trying to move on without him in your life. Although you are moving forward, you can’t deny that you still love him… what if he suddenly talked to you after years of silence? All the memories and buried feelings comes again…
written last January 27, 2005 (Thursday)
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Calling…
I whispered in the wind,
“Be with me…”
Hoping that it will come to you.
But what’s the use of telling it to the wind?
It will take forever or never at all to reach you.
So, I’m speaking out, face down on the ground.
No more shame, no more hiding.
Crush me in the end,or laugh if you want.
Look at me with disgust, or think pathetic of me.
My eyes are shut. My hands are cold.
My heart beats fast. My pride is down.
“…Would you stay with me before you go?”
Why so sudden, you showed up?
Are you calling me?
Do you want to tell me something?
“I’ve always been here,”
I’m just not saying it out loud.
“…waiting,”
I don’t want to admit it…
“…hoping,”
Because I’m afraid to expect anything…
“…that you will reach out for me.”
And look like a fool…
Why did you call me once again?
And haunt me in my dreams once more?
“Let me know…”
I want to know what’s in your heart…
“Speak to me…”
To listen once again to your soul…
“I am here…”
Like the way it was before…
Crush me in the end, or laugh if you want.
Look at me with disgust, or think pathetic of me.
I am ready for what ever it will be…
So, I’m speaking out, face down on the ground…
“…Would you stay with me before you go?”
